Nothing Behind My Eyes

I woke up late again today

The ceiling knows my name

I tried to cry,

I really did But nothing came my way

There's something stuck behind my eyes Something I can't find

I think I lost a part of me

Or left it somewhere behind

And everybody asks me “Are you doing okay?” I tell them I'm

amazing

Then I smile and look away

Nothing comes out of my eyes

Nothing comes out of my head

I lie awake for hours

With nothing left to say

Am I still somewhere inside me?

Or did I disappear?

I keep looking for a feeling

But I can't find one

here (ooh-ooh)

I made a friend that isn't real

And gave myself a life

I tell them all the things I've done

To make myself seem right

I say I'm getting better

I say I've finally grown

I turn myself into somebody

I wouldn't hate to know

And when they say they're proud of me

I almost start to cry

But even then, there's nothing there Just another practiced smile

I wonder if they love me

Or the person that I made

If I stopped pretending tomorrow Would they all just walk away?

I don't want to hurt anybody

So I keep hurting quietly

I wish I could explain it

Without making them worry

I don't know what I'm feeling I don't know what I've become

I just know there's something missing

And I don't know where

it's gone

So I'll put on my best clothes

And tell them I'm alright

I'll become somebody impressive For another night

Maybe someday I'll wake up

And something will finally move

Maybe I'll find the girl I was Before I learned to hide

the truth

Nothing comes out of my eyes

But I'm still here somehow

Maybe that's enough for tonight Maybe that's enough for now