holding my own

I smiled at everyone today

Shared a joke along the way

No one saw the quiet

room inside

Or the heavy things I try

to hide

And the armor starts to wear so thin

Every brick I built is caving in

I've been holding on so tight and long But the truth is

everything is wrong

I forgot how

to speak

When the water

got

too deep

I built a fortress

in the dark to stay strong

Now I don't know where my real self

has gone (ooh)

I see the child in the bedroom light

Laughing late into the summer night

Before the world grew cold and strange Before the people that I

loved could change

I forgot how

to speak

When the water

got

too deep

I built a fortress in

the dark to stay strong

Now I don't know

where my real self has gone (where have

I gone?)

But I'm breathing out at last

Letting go

of all the past (ahhh)