Lost in the Rain

Yeah…

Sometimes you smile just to hide what you feel,

Sometimes you say “I’m good” when the pain is too real,

I been fighting my thoughts,

tryna learn how to heal,

But the scars on my heart remind me they’re real.

Late nights, staring at the ceiling alone,

Phone in my hand but nobody to phone,

Everybody around me, still feeling unknown,

I built a whole world but I’m lost in my own.

I remember them nights when the lights went low,

Had a lot on my mind but I never let it show,

Mama asked if I’m fine,

I said, “Yeah, I know,”

But deep down inside,

I was breaking real slow.

I was chasing a dream with a hole in my chest,

Giving love to the people who gave me less,

Put my trust in some hearts that I thought were blessed,

Now I question every promise and every “yes.” I don’t wanna be

cold, I just learned how to hide,

Put a smile on my face while I’m dying inside,

Had some people I loved who just switched up sides,

Now I keep my emotions locked deep inside.

If I told you the truth,

would you stay for the pain?

Would you hold me together when I fall again?

Would you call me your brother when I got no gain?

Or disappear like the rest when I’m stuck in the rain?

And I know…

I know…

I can’t keep running from the things that I know,

Every tear that I hide got a story to show,

Every wound in my heart got a place it can grow.

So tonight… tonight… If I fall,

I just hope somebody stays by my side,

I been searching for peace that I can’t seem to find,

Maybe love is the light I been chasing at night.

I’m so far from home,

but I’m close to the pain,

I keep calling your name while I’m walking through rain,

Tried to bury my feelings but they rise up again,

I keep losing myself just to feel something sane.

Tell me, where do I go when the road disappears?

Who do I call when nobody hears?

I got dreams in my heart and a pocket full of fears,

I been smiling for years while I’m drowning in tears.

Look—

I had nights I couldn’t sleep,

I was counting every loss,

Had a heart full of questions,

couldn’t figure out the cost,

Everybody wants the shine,

nobody talks about the frost,

Everybody sees the crown,

they don’t know what it cost.

I was young with a vision,

had a dream in my eyes,

Now I’m older with a heart full of things I disguise,

People tell me “keep going,” but they don’t know the nights,

When I’m staring at the mirror asking,

“Am I alright?” I gave love without limits,

got limits in return,

Gave my trust to some people,

watched the bridges burn,

Every lesson that I learned was a lesson that hurt,

Now I’m scared to give my heart ‘cause I know what it’s

worth. Still I walk through the darkness with a flame in my

hand, Even when I don’t understand,

I still try to understand,

If tomorrow brings a better day,

then maybe I can stand,

‘Cause I’m tired of surviving—I’m just trying to expand.

And I know…

I know…

I can’t keep running from the things that I know,

Every tear that I hide got a story to show,

Every wound in my heart got a place it can grow.

So tonight…

tonight… If I fall,

I just hope somebody stays by my side,

I been searching for peace that I can’t seem to find,

Maybe love is the light I been chasing at night.

I’m so far from home,

but I’m close to the pain,

I keep calling your name while I’m walking through rain,

Tried to bury my feelings but they rise up again,

I keep losing myself just to feel something sane.

Tell me, where do I go when the road disappears?

Who do I call when nobody hears?

I got dreams in my heart and a pocket full of fears,

I been smiling for years while I’m drowning in tears.

(drowning in tears...)

(yeah...) (smiling

for years...)