Quiet the Voice

There it is again,

that voice in the dark Finding every little flaw,

every missing part

You idiot, you loser,

look what you’ve done

You turn every mistake into another one

I tell myself, “Stop,

just let it go”

But you keep getting louder than I’ll ever know

You follow me

everywhere I go

And somehow you always know what hurts the most

I question every word Every thought,

every move Was I wrong again?

What did I do?

I search my memory

For something I missed But you already decided I’m guilty of this

CAN YOU PLEASE BE QUIET?

I’m begging you tonight I’m tired of fighting Just to prove that

I’m alright You tell me I’m worthless You tell me I’m alone

You tell me nobody could ever Really love me for my own

And I’m trying, I’m trying But I’m losing my way Your voice

gets louder With every word you say I just want one moment

Where I don’t have to hide From the voice in my head

That never leaves my side You take every problem

And make it my fault You build up the evidence Until I’m

convinced I’m not enough “You should’ve known better.” “You should’ve done more.”

“You always mess up.” “You always make things worse.” And I know

somewhere

There has to be another way But your words get tangled Around

everything I say

I try to fight back But I don’t know what is true

Because after hearing you for so long I started sounding like you

Now I’m scared of my thoughts Scared of what I’ll say Scared

that one wrong move

Will ruin everything I don’t want to hate myself I don’t want

to feel this way I just want to make it through One

ordinary day

Please…

I know I’m not perfect.

I know I make mistakes.

I know sometimes I say the wrong thing.

But do I really have to pay For every single one forever?

Please stop keeping score.

Please stop reminding me.

Please let me have one thought That doesn’t end with “You’re not

enough.” Because I’m exhausted.

And I don’t want to keep

Fighting myself Just to get through the day.

CAN YOU PLEASE BE QUIET?

Just give me room to breathe

I don’t need you screaming Everything you think about me Maybe I’m

not worthless Maybe I’m not alone Maybe there are people Who could

love me as my own And I’m trying,

I’m trying

Even when I’m scared Even when your voice says Nobody will care

I don’t know the answer

I don’t know what comes next But I’m still here listening

For something beyond your voice

You idiot.

You loser.

You’re never enough.

No.

Not this time.

I hear you.

But I don’t have to become you.