If only

If only

Yeah

If only

If only I had time

If only I had time

If only I had luck If only I could get myself out

of the rut

If only I knew where I was going

If only I knew who to trust Maybe I'd finally find a

way Maybe I'd finally find enough I've been staring at the ceiling

Trying to figure out my life

Every answer that I wanted

Always came with another why

I keep running from the feeling

But it follows every night

And I'm tired of pretending

That I'm somehow doing fine

I've had days I couldn't face

I've had nights I couldn't sleep

Had a thousand different thoughts

That I couldn't make me keep

I've been searching for a reason

I've been searching for a sign

But maybe what I'm looking for

Was never meant to be defined If only I could turn it

back

If only I could change the past

If only I could know for sure

How long the good things ever last

If only I had time

If only I had luck

If only I could get myself out of the rut

If only I could breathe

If only I could trust

If only I could find somebody Who could tell me that's enough

If only I knew

What I'm supposed to do

If only I could see myself The way that others do

If only

If only

Maybe I'd be alright

If only I had time

I've been counting every second Like the clock owes me a life

Trying to make tomorrow Make some sense of yesterday's night

I've given pieces of myself To people I couldn't keep

Then wondered why I felt so empty When they left me with

the grief

Maybe luck was never luck

Maybe timing's just a game

Maybe every wrong direction Still could lead me somewhere safe

Maybe every door that closed

Wasn't really meant to stay

Maybe getting lost is sometimes Just another kind of way

I've been looking for an escape

I've been looking for a rush

Something loud enough to drown out

Every thought inside my head

But the silence always finds me

When the noise is finally done And I still have to face

myself When everybody's gone But what if I don't need luck?

What if I don't need time?

What if everything I'm waiting for Is waiting in my mind?

What if I stop asking When my life is gonna start?

What if getting out the rut

Means getting out my head?

What if I don't have to know?

What if I just have to try?

What if every little step

Is enough to get me by?

So I'm taking what I've got

Even if it isn't much

One breath and then another

One step and then I trust

I don't know where I'm heading

I don't know where I'll end

But I've spent enough of my life Waiting for a life to

begin

Maybe time isn't against me

Maybe time is all I have

Maybe luck isn't the answer

Maybe I can make my path

Maybe I don't need somebody

To tell me who I am

Maybe I can meet myself Without needing to understand

And if tomorrow isn't perfect Then tomorrow isn't lost

If I stumble on the way there

That's the price of moving on

I was waiting for a moment When everything would line up

Now I'm learning that sometimes You just have to get back up

If only I had time

If only I had luck

If only I could get myself out of the rut

But maybe I can breathe

Maybe I can trust

Maybe I can find a reason To believe that's enough

I don't know where I'm going

I don't know what I'll become

But I know I'm still here

And I know I'm not done

If only

If only

Maybe that's alright

Maybe I don't need luck

Maybe I just need time

If only I had time

If only I had luck

If only I could get myself out of the rut

Maybe I can Maybe I will Maybe that's enough If only