Below The Surface

The

sea

is

quiet

tonight But my head won't

stop I learned to walk where nobody stayed Past empty chairs and

the beds unmade

I kept my secrets under my tongue

Smiled for the world while I came undone

The hallway light would flicker and fade

I called out once,

then I was afraid

So I made a friend of the bedroom wall

It never left me,

it heard it all

If I disappear into the blue

Would anybody come looking through?

I'm alone beneath the tide

With a thousand ghosts on either side

I keep calling, but the silence grows Like a dark wave nobody

knows I'm alone, and I don't know why

I keep reaching for an empty sky

If my heart breaks under all this blue Would the deep remember

you?

I watched my phone stay cold and still

While the night crept over the windowsill

Every promise turned into a scar I learned that distance isn't always

far I wore my strength like a suit of steel So nobody

asked me what I feel But underneath where the dark winds move

I'm just a lost soul looking for proof

I'm alone beneath the tide

With a thousand ghosts on either side

I keep calling, but the silence grows Like a dark wave nobody

knows I'm alone, and I don't know why

I keep reaching for an empty sky

If my heart breaks under all this blue Would the deep remember

you?

Yeah, I talk to the ceiling when the room goes black Read

old conversations, never write back Got a list of names that I

won't disturb

And a thousand little thoughts that I never put in words

Everybody sees the armor,

nobody sees the rust I say,

“I'm good,” because “I'm breaking” sounds too much I became my own

shelter, my own locked door Now I don't know what I'm waiting

for

I keep one light on just to fake a home Keep the

music low so it feels less alone If power is a wave,

then I'm lost in the foam I built a whole ocean just

to hide what I don't show

Maybe somewhere past the falling rain

Someone knows the shape of this kind of pain

Maybe if I let one tear fall through The dark won't take

everything I knew

I'm alone beneath the tide

But I still have a pulse inside

Though the silence covers everything

I can hear a broken heartbeat sing I'm alone,

but I won't lie

I am tired, and I want to try If my heart breaks

under all this blue Maybe the deep can carry

me through

The sea is quiet tonight And I am still here