How
I know I'm supposed to feel something.
I just don't know
how. They say you gotta feel it to heal it,
but feel what?
I know there's something in me but I don't know what
Is it anger? Is it sadness?
Is it something I forgot?
Is it all of it at once and I just blocked it
out? I know I'm supposed to let it out,
let it breathe But every time I try I don't know what
I'm supposed to see
Is this healing? Is this hurting?
Is this both at the same time?
'Cause I don't know the difference anymore in my mind
How do I feel when I don't know what feeling is?
How do I heal when I don't know where the wound is?
How do I move when I don't know where I'm going?
How do I live when I don't know what I'm holding?
How?
How? How do I feel?
How do I know what's fake and what's real?
How?
How? How do I live?
When I got so much to give but I don't know how
to give it How?
How?
How do I understand?
When everything I feel is in a language I don't have
I know I'm supposed to understand it someday But someday feels far
and I'm stuck in today I know I'm supposed to trust the
process, trust the time But I don't know how to trust something
I can't define I know I'm supposed to feel it,
then release it, then be free But every time I get close
I don't know what it means to me Is it normal to
be this lost inside your own head?
Is it normal to feel everything and nothing instead?
How do I feel when I don't know what feeling is?
How do I heal when I don't know where the wound is?
How do I move when I don't know where I'm going?
How do I live when I don't know what I'm holding?
How?
How?
How do I feel?
How do I know what's fake and what's real?
How? How? How do I live?
When I got so much to give but I don't know how
to give it How?
How?
How do I understand?
When everything I feel is in a language I don't have
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How?
How? How do I feel?
How do I know what's fake and what's real?
How?
How? How do I live?
When I got so much to give but I don't know how
to give it How?
How? How do I understand?
When everything I feel is in a language I don't have
I don't know how.
I just know I'm trying.
That's all I got.