Faded Confidence

You told me yes,

then you took back your words,

Like water in a whirlpool,

gone without a turn.

You pulled me close,

then pushed me away,

Left me with the pieces of the things you couldn't say.

I thought we had something,

I thought we had a chance,

But now I'm just a memory you never planned to have.

You say that you need me,

but only as a friend,

While I'm stuck here wondering where the love began to end.

And I don't know how to let go,

Of a heart that you don't wanna hold.

I'm screaming inside, but nobody knows,

How much it hurts when you watch love turn cold.

I'm trapped in this life,

with heartbreak by my side,

Building up these walls just to watch them fall inside.

I've given you my all,

now there's nothing left to show,

Just a heart too big and a hollow soul.

And it collapses in on itself every time I try,

To give a little love,

just to end up asking why.

I'm broken, left to rot,

in the mess you left behind,

With a thousand shattered pieces of a heart that once was mine.

Honestly, I'm caught up in this trap called life,

Where every little bit of hope comes with another knife.

I put myself out there,

I let you see my scars,

I gave you all my pieces,

even the broken parts.

But every time I open up,

I end up losing more,

Another empty promise lying shattered on the floor.

You get to walk away like none of it was real,

While I'm drowning in the weight of everything I feel.

And I don't know how to let go,

Of the dreams that we were supposed to know.

I'm tired of pretending that I'm doing alright,

When I'm losing little pieces of myself every night.

I'm trapped in this life,

with heartbreak by my side,

Building up these walls just to watch them fall inside.

I've given you my all,

now there's nothing left to show,

Just a heart too big and a hollow soul.

And it collapses in on itself every time I try,

To give a little love,

just to end up asking why.

I'm broken, left to rot,

in the mess you left behind,

With a thousand shattered pieces of a heart that once was mine.

Maybe I'm too much,

maybe I'm not enough,

Maybe I'm just tired of calling pain love.

Maybe every time I reach out my hand,

I'm just setting myself up to break again.

I never asked for forever,

I just wanted something true.

But I keep giving pieces of myself To people who don't know

what to do. And if my heart could speak tonight,

It'd tell you how it's tired of trying.

It's not that I don't wanna love,

I'm just tired of always ending up crying.

I'm trapped in this life,

with heartbreak by my side,

Too many tears I've swallowed,

too much pain I hide.

I've given you my all,

now I'm standing here alone,

With a heart too big and a body that feels like home

to no one. And it collapses in on itself,

but it still beats on,

Even after all the people that have come and gone.

I'm broken, I'm hurting,

but I'm still somehow alive,

Just trying to find a reason to keep this heart of mine.

You told me yes…

Then you took it all away.

And I'm still here,

With all the words you couldn't say.

A heart too big…

A soul gone hollow… I keep putting myself out there,

But I'm scared of who I'll lose tomorrow.

I'm not asking you to

love me…

I'm just tired of breaking when I

try.