Too Much Full

Funny how you loved me when I needed you

Loved the empty pockets,

loved the IOUs

Loved me saying thank you for the crumbs you threw

Now I got a little weight and suddenly I'm rude?

You loved the hungry version,

easy to impress

Half a seat at your table felt like success

I could barely stand and you called me grounded Now I stand

straight and you don't like how it sounded "Don't forget us"—I remember

every face Especially the ones who liked me knowing my place

You didn't love my heart,

you loved the leverage Loved pouring half a glass and watching me

call it generous I got louder Got stronger Stayed longer Need you?

NO LONGER.

Don't call it arrogance

You just miss obedience Don't tell me I've changed because I finally

take up space You liked me desperate

You liked me grateful

You liked the hunger— NOW LOOK AT MY PLATE.

You liked me HUNGRY

You liked me SMALL You liked me GRATEFUL

For NOTHING AT ALL Now there's food on my plate And my

back's off the wall You thought I was too much hungry?

YOU WOULDN'T LIKE ME FULL.

You don't miss the old me You miss your favorite chair The

one who sat beneath you And was grateful you were there

You miss the phone calls: "Can you help me out?"

Funny, I stopped asking and you started having doubts Now "money changed

you"—nah, money changed the view I finally saw the difference between love

and being used You liked giving directions when I couldn't find the

road

Now I built the highway and you're mad I missed your toll

Crumbs Debt Shame Next I remember every meal I remember every check.

Don't call it arrogance You just lost your influence You never feared

me starving You fear me FED You liked me reaching

You liked me waiting

Now both hands are full—

WHAT WERE YOU SAYING?

You liked me HUNGRY

You liked me SMALL You liked me GRATEFUL

For NOTHING AT ALL Now there's food on my plate And my

back's off the wall You thought I was too much hungry?

YOU WOULDN'T LIKE ME FULL.

You said,

"Stay humble."

You meant, "Stay underneath me."

You said, "Remember where you came from." I remember.

That's why I'm not going back.

You liked me HUNGRY!

You liked me SMALL!

You liked me needing you To feel ten feet tall!

Now I filled my own plate I don't need you at all

You were comfortable watching me crawl— You liked me hungry...

Now watch me FULL.