Paper Bridges

I'm sorry if I hurt you in anyway,

for accusing you,

but I want you to understand,

don't just blame this on me,

blame yourself

for hurting

me.

You lied to me for so many times,

and now you always calls me crazy and psychotic.

Would my mental health have suffered

if you had treated me right?

I wouldn't be angry,

I wouldn't overthink

if you had stayed honest and loyal.

I'm just a person who got hurt.

You made me doubt myself again

and question my worth.

I didn't ask to overthink

every little thing.

You think I enjoy being like this?

Do you know how hard it is

to deal with this?

To battle my own thoughts every single day

because of the damage you've cause?

(damage you've cause)

You blame me saying I became toxic,

but do you even ask yourself why?

Did u ever think how your past actions pushed me to become

like this?

If you had been honest

and faithful in the first place

none of this would've happened.

Right now, I feel like I wanna shut my self down,

coz despite of how many times I tell you of how I

feel,

on what I've been going through,

it always ends up me being crazy and psychotic.

And I'm tired of hearing it

because I know I'm not.

I'm hurting right now,

as much as I love you,

I don't know how to make it better,

that won't affect the relationship.

And you know what so hard about it too?

I've been good to you,

I never lied, I never break your trust.

I didn't understand the lies part,

the hiding calls and messages,

so every time I thought about it,

I always question my self:

what if again? That's me being scared,

and if it will,

it will shattered me big

time.

I want you,

pls help me get through

this.

(pls help me)