Scars That Hold Us

I remember my whole world going black,

Didn't know if I'd wake,

didn't know if I'd come back,

Then I opened my eyes but the nightmare stayed,

Different kind of hell when you're alive but you're changed.

Head full of confusion,

heart full of anger,

Looking at the mirror like,

"Who the fuck is this stranger?" Lost myself somewhere between the pain

and the violence, Every scar on my body got a story behind

it.

Now every day I'm fighting just to heal what is broken,

Trying to find the words for the things left unspoken,

Trying to bury the anger without burying me,

Trying to find who I was underneath all the grief.

(yeah, underneath it all)

I survived the beating but the battle kept going,

Physical wounds healed while the inside kept bleeding,

Some days I'm strong,

some days I crumble,

Some days I feel like I'm dragging everybody under. (hummmm)

And you...

You stayed when I gave you every reason to leave,

Saw the worst parts of me

and still believed. While I was fighting demons,

you were fighting them too,

And every wound I carried left a scar on you.

I'm sorry for the nights that you cried because of me,

Sorry for the weight that I made you carry with me,

I look into your eyes and I don't understand How somebody like

you could still hold my hand.

(still hold my hand)

I feel like a burden,

like I don't deserve you,

Like all of my darkness keeps hurting the person who loves me,

But I'm praying to God,

"Please give me another day,

Give me strength to become the man she deserves someday."

'Cause I don't wanna lose you,

Don't wanna pull you down,

I'm fighting through this darkness Just to make you proud.

(ooh, to make you proud)