Distant Tearstorms

(mmmmm) I wake up every morning with a weight upon my chest,

Everybody thinks I'm fine,

but they don't know the rest.

I got a thousand feelings that I don't know how to say,

So I hold them all inside and try to make it through

the day. Sometimes I start crying,

don't know where to begin,

There's a storm inside my heart that I'm keeping deep within.

I'm scared of what tomorrow holds,

I'm tired of feeling lost,

And I wish somebody understood how much this pain has cost.

I just want my mom,

I just want to feel at home,

I'm tired of feeling scared,

tired of feeling so alone.

I don't want to live with my aunt,

I wish things could change,

I wish somebody heard me when I say I'm not okay.

Daddy, I miss you,

I wish you were still here,

I have so much to tell you,

so many things I fear.

I'm crying in my room with a heart that can't explain,

I wish somebody understood the words behind my pain.

Daddy, do you know how much I wish that you were here?

There are days I need my father when I'm fighting back my

tears. I wonder what you'd tell me when the whole world's feeling

wrong, Would you tell me I'm still brave?

Would you help me to stay strong?

I see other girls with dads,

and I wonder what that's like,

To have somebody beside you when you're scared late at night.

There's so much I wish I'd told you,

so much I wish you'd seen,

And I hate that all these memories are all that I can

keep.

I want to live with my mom,

I want a place to breathe,

Somewhere I can say I'm hurting without hiding what I feel.

I'm not trying to cause trouble,

I'm just trying to be heard,

But sometimes when I'm talking,

I can't find the right words.

So if I start crying,

please don't tell me I'm too much,

I don't need somebody judging me,

I need somebody's love.

I'm still trying to understand what's happening inside,

I just need a little comfort and a safe place I can

cry.

If

I could explain it,

I'd tell you everything,

Every fear I'm holding,

every broken dream. But the words get stuck,

and the tears fall down,

And I feel so lost when there's nobody around.

I don't need all the answers,

I don't need you to fix it all,

I just need somebody with me when I feel like I might

fall. I'm still here,

still feeling, still trying every day,

And I hope there's a tomorrow when the hurt won't feel this

way.

I just want my mom,

I want somewhere I belong,

I want to feel protected; I've been trying to be strong.

Daddy, I still miss you,

and I wish that you could see The person I'm becoming and

the person I could be.

I might not have the words,

but my feelings are real,

And even when I'm crying,

I deserve a chance to heal.

So if you hear this song,

please understand my plea: I'm not asking for perfection.

I just need someone to hear me.

(hear me...)