Pieces Left Unsaid

I wish you knew how many nights

I whispered your name into my pillow so quietly

because I was afraid even my tears

would wake the memories of you

I wish you knew how many times I opened our messages

typed "I miss you," and deleted it

because I knew

you didn't miss me back

You were once the person

I ran to when I was hurting

Now you are the reason

I have to hide my tears

And that is what hurts the most

Not that you left,

not even that you stopped loving me

It's knowing that I would still answer your call at

three in the morning

if you ever needed me

while you probably wouldn't even notice

if I

disappeared from your life tomorrow

I gave you pieces of me

I will never get back

My trust.

My time.

My heart.

The softest parts of me

that I promised myself I would never give again And you held

them like they meant everything

until they meant nothing

to you

Sometimes I wonder if you look at the sky and remember me

Because I still do

And sometimes I cry not because I want you back but because

I wish the person I loved

had loved me the way I loved them

Maybe one day I'll stop waiting for you

Maybe one day your name won't hurt anymore

But tonight...

I'll let myself cry Because I loved you with a heart

that never knew how to love halfway

And maybe that was my mistake

But I hope someday someone holds my heart gently

and makes me realize

I was never too much

I was just giving my whole heart

to someone

who only wanted a piece