Blocks

I'm

looking for the pieces.

Every block. Every part.

I don't

know what it looks

like

finished. I

just know I'm not whole.

I found a block in my childhood,

underneath the floor It was trust — I picked it up and

it didn't fit no more I found a block in my first

love, cracked along the edge It was honesty — I tried to

place it, couldn't make it stretch I found a block in the

mirror, staring back at me It was self-worth — covered in dust,

hard to see

Every piece I pick up is a little more broke And I'm

trying to build a picture from a house that's been smoke

I don't know the shape of it,

I don't know the frame I just know I'm missing pieces and

I don't know who to blame Every block I find is heavier

than the one before And I'm running out of room to keep

searching anymore

Puzzle, puzzle Every piece I find is another piece I lost Puzzle,

puzzle

I'm building something back from everything it cost Puzzle,

puzzle

I don't know what it looks like when it's done Puzzle,

puzzle

I just know I'm not whole and I'm trying to be one

I found a block in the bottle,

I found one in the smoke I found one in the silence

every time I almost spoke I found one in the anger,

I found one in the shame I found one in the mirror

every time I said your name And every time I think I

got it, another one breaks And every time I place it,

it don't fit in the space I'm running out of patience,

running out of glue Trying to build a better me out of

what I never knew

I don't know the shape of it,

I don't know the frame I just know I'm missing pieces and

I don't know who to blame Every block I find is heavier

than the one before And I'm running out of room to keep

searching anymore

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Puzzle, puzzle Every piece I find is another piece I lost Puzzle,

puzzle I'm building something back from everything it cost Puzzle,

puzzle

I don't know what it looks like when it's done Puzzle,

puzzle I just know I'm not whole and I'm trying to be

one

I don't need it perfect.

I just need it whole.

One piece at a time.

One block at a time.