Different Goodbye

I kept the ticket from that rainy night,

The one where neither of us got it right.

You held the door,

I waited for a sign,

We stood so close and still missed the time.

I used to think that if you knew my heart,

You’d hear the words I couldn’t pull apart.

But you were waiting for me to explain,

While I was hoping you’d notice the pain.

I still remember how you looked away,

I thought you needed space,

so I gave you days.

I had a thousand things I meant to say,

But every honest word came out too late.

I thought that staying meant I’d done my part,

Didn’t know you felt alone inside my arms.

You wanted me to ask you what was wrong,

I thought being quiet meant I’d kept us strong.

Maybe you were hurting where I couldn’t see,

Maybe I was scared of what you’d ask of me.

We were both reaching,

just out of time,

Two open hands on opposite sides.

We said the same goodbye,

But we heard different words.

You thought I didn’t want you,

I thought I wasn’t heard.

We were standing in the doorway,

With a thousand things to say.

We said the same goodbye,

Just in different ways.

(Oh, in different ways)

I don’t hate you

for the things you couldn’t be,

I just miss who I was before I stopped asking.

I don’t blame you

for the way you had to leave,

I just wish I’d known that silence wasn’t peace.

If we met today,

would you know my face?

Would you let me speak,

would you give me space?

Would we make the same mistakes again?

Or would we learn what love could’ve been?

Some things end before the feeling dies,

Some truths only come to us with time.

We said the same goodbye,

But we heard different words.

You thought I didn’t want you,

I thought I wasn’t heard.

We were standing in the doorway,

With a thousand things to say.

We said the same goodbye,

Just in different ways.

Maybe neither one was wrong,

Maybe we just waited too long.

We said the same goodbye,

Just in different ways.

I kept the ticket.

I kept the time.

Funny how we lost us

While we both thought we were trying.