Fighting My Reflection
I stood in front of the mirror again
Looking for something wrong
Everybody says I look just fine So why have I felt this
way so long?
I pull my shirt down one more time Try to make the
pieces fit I look at all the other girls And wonder why
I'm not like them I change my clothes,
then change again Nothing ever feels quite right I tell myself it's
just a moment But it follows me all night I see the
pictures on my phone Of girls who seem to have it all
And suddenly my own reflection Makes me feel a hundred times too
small
And I know that bodies change But it's hard to understand Why
the girl inside the mirror Feels like someone I can't stand
Why can't I see
what others see?!
Why am I so hard on me?!
I'm fighting with the mirror!
And I'm tired of losing sleep!
Trying to look like somebody Who was never meant to be me!
I don't wanna hate my body!
I don't wanna hide my face!
I just wanna feel comfortable Taking up my own space!
Oh-oh-oh, I'm tired of the lies!
Oh-oh-oh, of seeing through their eyes!
I'm more than what the mirror shows!
And that's something I wanna know!
I hear a joke about somebody's size And suddenly I wonder about
mine I laugh along so no one knows How much it hurts
me deep inside
I wish that I could wear that dress Without wondering what they'll
say I wish that I could run and dance Without feeling in
the way And sometimes when my mom says You're beautiful just as
you are I wanna believe her so badly
But believing feels so hard
Maybe I don't need an answer
Maybe I don't need to change
Maybe all these cruel comparisons Are what's causing all this pain I'm
done asking for permission!
To be happy in my skin!
I'm fighting with the mirror!
And I'm tired of losing sleep!
Trying to look like somebody Who was never meant to be me!
I don't wanna hate my body!
I don't wanna hide my face!
I just wanna feel comfortable Taking up my own space!
Oh-oh-oh, I'm tired of the lies!
Oh-oh-oh, of seeing through their eyes!
I'm more than what the mirror shows!
And that's something I wanna know!
What if I stopped counting flaws
And started counting all the days
My body carried me through laughter
Through the sunshine and the rain?
What if I could see my body
As a home instead of a fight?
What if I didn't have to love it Every single day or
night?
Maybe I can have hard moments
Maybe I can cry sometimes Without believing every thought That comes into
my mind I'm not a number!
I'm not a size!
I'm not the fear behind my eyes!
I'm done fighting with the mirror!
It doesn't get to rule my life!
I don't have to love my reflection Every single day or night!
I'm gonna wear the clothes I love!
I'm gonna dance and sing out loud!
I don't have to look like anyone To deserve to feel proud!
Oh-oh-oh, I'm learning to be kind!
Oh-oh-oh, to this body that is mine!
I'm more than what the mirror shows!
And I'm allowed to take up space!
Tomorrow I might look again
And maybe I'll still have doubts But
I don't have to believe Every
unkind thought I have about myself