Deepwater Cracks

I’m lookin’ at the ceiling,

watchin’ shadows on the wall

I’m waiting for a text that I know wont come at all

Scrolling through the memories,

photos on my phone

In a room full of people,

got me feeling all alone,

Yeah, I put up a smile just to fake my way through

telling everybody “I’m good,” but you knew it wasn’t true.

Got a heavy chest,

weight of the world on my back,

I’m just trying to find the right track,

but I keep slipping through all the cracks.

Late night thoughts got me sinking down deep,

countin’ all my flaws when im supposed to be asle-e-ep,

the rain keeps falling on my windowpane

i’m just tryna find a way to make peace with this pain, (yeah)

Yeah maybe I should just fade away,

fade away, fade away

just like vision we used to have,

now the picture gettin’ blurry.

I just wish we could go back to the way things were,

people change fast,

turn their backs and leave.

Got me second guessing everything that I believed,

tryin’ to hold it all together with a frayed little thread.

You got me thinking in my head.

I can’t stop overthinking about what the hell you said.

Now you got me lying wide awake in my bed

Tossin’, turnin’, wishin’ i could break down instead Burning up all the

pages I wish I hadn’t read,

Got me countin’ all the tears I shouldn’t have shed

Trapped inside the heavy walls of my head.

The dry wall is humming with the noise of my mistakes

Every corner of this room is just a shape my shadow takes

You left me trembling from the weight

of every breath that it makes.

huh yeah, i guess your a piece of shit for thinking it's

just a familiar kind of hollow that makes my heavy spirit break.

Just waiting for the morning light to come up and wash away

the ache.

As the morning light shined through my window cracks

i started realizing that loving you was my life’s most beautiful mistake

of all.