Working My Way Back

(hummmmm) Mary, I know I hurt you,

More than these words can say.

Five years of bad decisions,

Watching our lives slip away.

I relapsed, I did stupid things,

And I know I let you down.

Instead of being there beside you,

I wasn't even around.

I can't turn back those years,

Can't take away your tears.

All I can do is face the truth And fight to change

from here.

Mary, I'm working my way back to you,

One day at a time,

that's all I can do.

I'm only one month in,

got five more to go,

Learning how to live and learning how to grow.

I spent over a year locked up,

While you had to carry on without me.

I'm sorry I wasn't there,

Mary,

I'm sorry for the man I used to be.

I can't change yesterday,

But I can make tomorrow new.

Mary, I'm working, I'm fighting,

I'm working my way back to

you.

Los Angeles County Jail,

Those walls kept me away.

Over a year of missing life,

Missing things I can't replace.

I know you had your own battles,

And I wasn't there to hold you tight.

You shouldn't have had to face those days Without me by your

side.

I know an apology

Can't undo what I've done.

So I'm not asking you to forget—

I'm showing you I'm not done.

Six months in this program,

And I'm barely getting started.

But every day I'm here

Is one more day I'm fighting for us.

I'm learning why I ran,

I'm learning how to stand,

I'm learning how to be your husband,

And finally become a better man.

I don't expect your trust overnight.

I know I have to earn it right.

So I won't just say I'm changing—

I'll show you with my life.

Mary, I'm working my way back to you,

With every single thing that I do.

I've got five more months,

And a lifetime to prove That the man you see coming home

Is somebody different too.

I know I broke your heart,

And I know I caused you pain,

But I'm fighting every day To never go back there again.

If you'll let me,

Mary, I'll earn your heart again.

Not with empty promises,

But by the man

I become in the end.

I'm sorry for the years...

I'm sorry I wasn't there...

I'm sorry for the pain I caused you.

But I'm still here.

I'm still fighting.

And I'm coming home a better man.

Mary...

I'm working my way back to you.