If You Were Looking

Did you see me by the vending machine?

Did you notice I wore your favorite jeans?

You said hello, and I said it back,

Then spent three hours thinking about that.

You asked me if I'd seen your phone,

I helped you look,

then walked you home.

You said, "You're such a good friend to me," I smiled like

that was all I wanted to be.

If you

were looking, would you look at me?

Would you see the things I never let you see?

Would you notice how I know your favorite song,

How I wish that I could stay with you all night long?

If you

were searching through a crowded room,

Would your eyes find mine the way mine find you?

I keep hoping for a sign that isn't there,

Wondering if you ever wish that I was there.

You stole my hoodie when the gym got cold,

Said you'd give it back,

but you never did,

though.

I wore a smile for the rest of the day,

You wore my hoodie like it meant nothing anyway.

You tell me everything,

the good and bad,

The best days you have and the days you're sad.

I'm honored that you trust me with your heart,

I just hate that mine's a thousand miles apart.

I don't need a movie scene,

A kiss beneath the lights.

I'd settle for a second Where you wonder what it's like

To have me on your mind The way you're always on mine.

If you

were looking, would you look at me?

Would you find the girl beneath the jealousy?

Would you hear the words I swallow every day,

All the little things I'm always scared to say?

If you

were searching through a crowded room,

Would your eyes find mine the way mine find you?

I keep hoping for a sign that isn't there.

Maybe you don't look.

Maybe you don't care.

But if you were looking,

I would still be there.