Broken Sleep

Life gets bad,

I get that, but

don't be bad.

Just go and enjoy life while you can.

I wake up and your side is cold,

Same four walls, but they feel old.

I read your messages one more time,

Like somehow they'll change my mind.

I said I'm fine,

but that's a lie,

I smile with tears behind my eyes.

Everybody thinks I'm doing okay,

But I'm falling apart every day.

Maybe I'm the one who messed it up,

Maybe I was never enough.

I keep looking for someone to blame,

But every road leads back to my name.

I'm fucked up,

I can't lie,

I miss you every damn night.

I'm fucked up,

losing sleep,

Got all these memories I can't keep.

You moved on,

I'm still stuck, Trying to fix what's already fucked.

I wish I could turn back time,

But you're gone and I'm losing my mind.

I see your face in crowded rooms,

Hear your voice in empty ones.

I still know your favorite song,

Even though you're long gone.

I deleted every picture,

But I still remember every word.

Funny how the things we wanted

Can become the things that hurt.

If I could tell you

one last thing, I'd say I'm sorry

for everything. For every fight,

every tear, For pushing you away when I needed you near.

Maybe someday I'll be okay,

But tonight I'm still stuck in yesterday.

I'm fucked up,

I can't lie, Still asking myself why.

I'm fucked up,

barely breathing, Trying to forget what I still believe in.

You moved on,

I'm still stuck, Lost in everything we fucked up.

Maybe someday I'll be alright,

But tonight...

I miss you tonight.

Yeah...

I'm fucked up.

And I don't know how to fix myself.

I just wish you were here.