Behind Closed Doors

I smile at dinner,

pass the bread

Say I'm fine and go to bed

There's a room inside my chest

Where I keep what I can't confess

My mind is killing me,

telling me That one day the room will burst out

And I will lose

everything I have

So I keep on smiling,

keep the door shut tight

Say I'm fine, say I'm fine,

every single night

One more day, one more lie

One more room I hide inside

You'd hold it if I let you in

But I'm scared of where I've been

So I paint a calmer face And leave no key,

no trace

In the morning, drinking endless coffee to stay awake

After all the nightmares I am scared to face

So I keep on smiling,

keep the door shut tight Say I'm fine,

say I'm fine,

every single

night

One more day, one more lie

One more room I hide inside

Still got the words lined up some nights,

right there behind my teeth

Then you ask if I'm okay,

and I swallow them like always

Give you something easier instead

You left your jacket here again,

hoping I'd call you to bring it back

It's still folded on my chair

I haven't called,

I don't know how to start

Maybe one day I'll turn around,

open up without a sound One day I might be good enough,

one day everything will be fine

But when will that day

arrive? (ahhhh)

So I keep on smiling,

keep the door shut tight

Say I'm fine, say I'm fine,

every single night

One more day, one more lie One more room I hide inside

Maybe tonight the door creaks open,

just an inch

But you'll notice it's unlocked,

and you still won't come in

Because I asked you not to