Let It In

I don't...

I don't really know what this is yet.

Nobody ever told me.

So I'm just gonna let it in.

Growing up, we didn't talk about the things that hurt Feelings were

a foreign word, we swept 'em in the dirt If I cried,

I learned to hide it,

put a smile on my face Nobody sat me down and said,

"Here's how you deal with this place" So I built these little

walls out of silence and jokes Learned to numb it all before

I even knew what I was supposed to feel Now there's something

in my chest and it's been knocking for a while And I

don't got the tools to answer,

I was never taught the style

I don't know if this is normal I don't know if I

should fight it

Everybody seems to carry something Maybe I'm just late to find it

So I let it in Let it sit beside me like it's

always been a friend Let it move my hands,

let it tell me who I am

I don't know its name

But I let it in Let it take the wheel,

I don't really understand Is it me or is it something that

I should've had a plan for?

I don't know its name

But I let it in

Okay, wait, hold up,

let me think, let me breathe It's been living in my head,

paying zero rent to me And I don't know if it's sadness

or it's anger or it's nothing But it's heavy in the morning

and it's louder when I'm bluffing I've been faking like I'm fine

'cause that's the only thing I know Nobody gave me a map,

so I'm just driving through the smoke And the scary part

ain't even that it's here It's that I'm getting used to it,

I'm letting it steer

I don't know if this is normal

I don't know if I should fight it

Everybody seems to carry something Maybe I'm just late to find it

What if this is just what people feel?

What if everybody lives like this and I'm just weak?

What if I'm supposed to carry this and never speak?

...Or what if I'm not,

and I just never learned the way?

I'm scared to ask the question 'cause I'm scared of what it'll

say

So I let it in Let it live beside me,

I don't know where I begin Let it move my hands,

let it tell me who I am I don't know its name

But I let it in

And maybe someday I'll know what to call it Maybe someday I'll

know how to fight But right now I'm just a kid who

was never shown the light I don't know its name

But it's living here tonight

I don't know its name...

But I let it in.