BrokenEyes

We used to tell each other everything,

No secrets, no walls,

no second-guessing.

I could call you crying,

you would always listen,

You knew all the things I kept hidden.

You were the first person I'd run to,

Whenever life got heavy,

I would come to you.

But somewhere along the way,

something changed,

Now even saying “I’m hurt” feels strange.

And that's when I knew you were getting distant,

When I couldn't tell you what was on my mind.

I still had so much I wanted to tell you,

But somehow I started feeling like I had to hide.

Do you hate me now?

'Cause that's how it feels.

The person I trusted

Doesn't feel real.

You used to catch me when I cried,

Now you act like I'm wasting your time.

You look at me like I'm the problem,

Like I ruined everything between us.

I'm still the same girl who needed you,

So why don't you need me like you used to? (sob) (sniffle)

I miss telling you things without being scared,

Knowing if I broke down,

you'd actually care. Now I type something out,

then delete it, Wondering if you'll get annoyed if you read it.

You used to know when something was wrong,

Now you barely notice when I'm gone.

And every time you're mean,

I pretend I'm fine,

Then go home and replay it in my mind.

Maybe I changed, maybe you did,

Maybe we're just growing into different lives.

But I wish you would tell me the truth

Instead of making me feel like I don't belong in yours.

Do you hate me now?

'Cause that's how it feels.

The person I trusted

Doesn't feel real. You used to catch me when I cried,

Now you act like I'm wasting your time.

You look at me like I'm the problem,

Like I ruined everything between us.

I'm a Black girl with a heart

that's still trying, Still smiling even when I'm quietly crying.

And I don't need you to fix me or save me,

I just miss when you actually understood me.

(sniffle) (sob) I don't know when “tell me everything”

Turned into “leave me alone.” I don't know when your shoulder

Stopped feeling like home.

And maybe that's the part that hurts the most—

Not losing you all at once,

But losing you little by little

While you're still standing right in front of me. (sob) (gasp)

Do you hate me now?

Please just tell me the truth.

'Cause I'd rather hear it from you

Than keep wondering what I did to you.

You

were the one I could cry to,

The one who knew me through and through.

Now I'm scared to say what's hurting me,

Because I don't know what you'll say or do.

If you're giving up on our friendship,

Don't make me feel like I'm the reason why.

I just want the friend I used to know,

Even if that means saying goodbye.

We used to tell each other everything…

And now I don't know how to tell you

That I miss you. (sniffle) (gasp)