Fractured Silence

(ahhhh) Trying every single day not to blow up on everyone

But it is hard to do with everything I'm going through

I'm holding back the pressure like a rising sun

But no one sees the storm inside,

they have no clue

My bio mom is gone,

she left a gaping space

And everyone acts like they don't even care

I search for comfort but I find an empty place

At home,

at school,

there's no one standing there

I am not okay right now,

I'm falling apart

No one cares about the weight inside my heart

I try so hard not to blow up on you

But I

am breaking in two

(screaming from the chest)

Walk the halls at tasc and no one looks my way

Go back home and it is still the same old game

Keep the anger buried deep inside all day

But the fire is burning through the frame

How am I supposed to carry all of this alone?

(how?) With a heavy chest and a heart turned to stone

I am fighting with my own ghost

When I need a hand the most

I try every day...

Not to blow up on them...

(please) I am not okay