I Was In The Room

You said it never happened...

But I was standing there.

I heard every single word.

So why do you tell me

There's nothing to hear?

I hear the voices getting louder,

From the other side of the wall.

I pull the blankets to my shoulders,

Pretend I don't hear them at all.

You say that I'm remembering wrong,

That things aren't what they seem.

But I know the words that I heard,

And they follow me into my dreams.

I see my mom trying to explain,

While you keep turning things around.

And somehow by the end of it,

The truth gets lost beneath the sound.

And I'm just a kid who's listening,

Trying to understand. Why does every conversation Turn into shifting sand?

YOU SAY I DON'T REMEMBER!

BUT I WAS STANDING THERE!

I WAS IN THE ROOM!

I HEARD WHAT YOU SAID!

YOU CAN CHANGE THE STORY,

BUT YOU CAN'T CHANGE WHAT'S IN MY HEAD!

I'M TIRED OF THE FIGHTING!

TIRED OF FEELING SMALL!

I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO BE THE ONE WHO MAKES SENSE OF IT

ALL! DON'T TELL ME I'M CRAZY!

DON'T TELL ME I'M WRONG!

I'VE BEEN HOLDING IN THESE FEELINGS FOR WAY TOO LONG!

Sometimes I just want a normal day,

Without the tension in the air.

Without wondering what I'll say That makes somebody disappear.

I don't want to be the messenger,

I don't want to take a side.

I just want to be somebody's daughter,

Without a thousand things to hide.

You tell me that you love me,

And I want to believe it's true.

But love shouldn't leave me wondering If my memories belong to you.

I don't need another explanation,

Or another reason why.

I just need somebody listening When I say what's on my mind.

I'M NOT ASKING YOU TO BE PERFECT!

I'M JUST ASKING YOU TO HEAR ME!

I WAS IN THE ROOM!

I HEARD WHAT YOU SAID!

YOU CAN CHANGE THE STORY,

BUT YOU CAN'T CHANGE WHAT'S IN MY HEAD!

I'M TIRED OF THE FIGHTING!

TIRED OF FEELING SMALL!

I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO BE THE ONE WHO MAKES SENSE OF IT

ALL! DON'T TELL ME I'M CRAZY!

DON'T TELL ME I'M WRONG!

I'VE BEEN HOLDING IN THESE FEELINGS FOR WAY TOO LONG!

I love my mom,

I love my dad,

But sometimes everything feels bad.

And I don't know what I'm supposed to say

When grown-up problems get in my way.

I wish that you could both just see How all of this

is affecting me. I don't need to know who's right,

I just want some peace tonight.

I shouldn't have to prove my feelings.

I shouldn't have to hide my tears.

I shouldn't have to carry stories That were never mine to bear.

I'M NOT THE REASON THAT YOU'RE FIGHTING!

I'M NOT THE ONE WHO HAS TO FIX IT!

I'M YOUR DAUGHTER! PLEASE JUST LISTEN!

I WAS IN THE ROOM!

AND MY VOICE MATTERS TOO!

YOU CAN TELL A DIFFERENT STORY,

BUT I KNOW WHAT I LIVED THROUGH!

I'M DONE FEELING INVISIBLE!

DONE PRETENDING I'M ALRIGHT!

I DESERVE TO FEEL SAFE AND HEARD,

NOT SCARED OF ANOTHER FIGHT!

I'M NOT YOUR BATTLE!

I'M NOT YOUR WAR!

I'M JUST A GIRL WHO DESERVES MORE!

I DON'T NEED TO PICK A SIDE!

I JUST WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE!

I was in the room...

I heard it all.

But I'm more than the fighting On the other side of the

wall.

And maybe someday you'll understand...

I wasn't asking you to agree.

I was just asking you to hear me.