Ice Age

(ahhhh) There's a version of grief that doesn't feel like grief at all

it feels like nothing,

feels like standing in a frozen hall

where everything's preserved exactly how it was the day it stopped I

thought I was healing.

I think I was just being locked

Ice age.

Ice age.

Nothing moves

when everything's this cold.

Ice age.

Ice age.

I mistook stillness

for

being whole.

Glaciers look permanent until you understand their pace

I thought this numbness was the end of it,

not just a different face of the same slow process,

still grinding, even when it feels still even ice is moving.

Even ice age is a kind of will.

Ice age. Ice age.

Nothing moves

when everything's this cold.

Ice age.

Ice age.

I mistook stillness

for being whole.