Still Here Now

Yeah…

Oh, I’ve been running…

Running from myself…

I wake up every morning with a weight upon my chest Got

a hundred things to handle,

never get no rest Bills are calling,

phones are ringing Everybody wants a piece And I’m standing in the

middle Trying to find some kind of peace I got a job

that pays the bills But it ain’t paying for my soul They

say, “Just do your hours,

baby” But they don’t know what it costs me to go

Everybody says,

“Girl, you gotta push through” But what the hell am I pushing

toward When I don’t know what I’m supposed to do?

I DON’T KNOW WHEN I’LL FEEL ALIVE AGAIN!

I DON’T KNOW WHEN I’LL FIND MY WAY!

I’ve been holding everybody up

While I’m falling apart every day

I’M NOT TRYING TO LEAVE THIS LIFE BEHIND!

I’M JUST TIRED OF LOSING MINE!

I know I’ll get back up somehow…

I JUST DON’T KNOW WHEN!

Ohhh, I don’t know when!

I get bored, I get restless Lose the fire that I had

Start believing something’s wrong with me And wonder why I can’t just

be glad

I make promises I mean to keep Then somehow I let them

slip

Not because I don’t love you Sometimes I just lose my grip

Everybody needs somebody And I wanna be that girl But how can

I carry everybody When I can’t carry my own world?

I’ve fallen off the railroad And I can’t see the tracks Everybody

keeps screaming “Girl,

you gotta get back!”

But I’m tired of pretending That I know where I’m going I’m

tired of saying

“I’m fine.”

Mama…

I need you to hear me now

This ain’t about him

This ain’t about somebody else This is something I’ve been carrying Since

I was somebody else I’ve been fighting with my own mind For

longer than you know

And every time I think I’ve made it out Something pulls me

below I don’t want you to fix me I don’t need you

to understand I just need you to know I’m doing everything I

can

And maybe I don’t need the answers…

Maybe I

just need another day…

I DON’T KNOW WHEN I’LL FEEL ALIVE AGAIN!

BUT I’M NOT GIVING UP TODAY!

I’ve got too much left inside of me To throw it all

away!

I’M MORE THAN THESE BILLS!

I’M MORE THAN THIS JOB!

I’M MORE THAN EVERYBODY’S EXPECTATIONS!

And if I fall down tonight… I’ll get up again somehow!

I DON’T KNOW WHEN!

I DON’T KNOW HOW!

BUT I’M STILL HERE NOW!

I’M STILL HERE! I’M STILL HERE!

I’M STILL— HERE!

Maybe tomorrow I’ll know… Maybe

next year I’ll know…

But tonight…

I’m still here.