quiet aftermath

I stare at the ceiling

While the whole world sleeps,

Holding all the words I was too scared to speak.

Your name is just a whisper

That I can't let go,

Funny how you left me

But I still feel you

close.

I keep your old picture

Hidden in a drawer,

Tell myself I'm healing,

But I miss you more.

Every night gets colder,

Every memory stays,

And the silence in my bedroom

Says your name again.

And maybe I should let you go,

But I don't know how.

I gave you all my yesterday,

And I need you somehow.

If you could hear me crying,

Would you turn around?

Or would you leave me here With nothing but the sound…

Yeah,

I keep running circles in my head,

can't sleep,

Thinking 'bout the promises you made to me.

Said forever, now forever feels fake,

Got a heart full of memories I can't erase.

I laugh with my friends like I'm doing okay,

Then I go home and I break down again.

I wish I could hate you,

it'd make this easy,

But I still miss you,

and that's what kills me.

Every little word that you said stays loud,

Even though you're gone,

I still hear you somehow.

I keep looking back at the things we had,

Trying to find the moment when it all went bad.

Maybe I'm holding on to something

that's gone, But letting you go feels like losing myself all along.

In the silence…

I still hear you.

In the darkness…

I still feel you.

And I wish I could go back To the moment before goodbye.

But all I have is silence… And tears I can't hide.

So I'll sit here in the quiet…

And miss you one more night. (silence…)