Stillness in Your Storm

When your voice gets louder,

I disappear inside,

Words get stuck behind my teeth,

And I don't know where to hide.

You think I'm not listening,

You think I don't care,

But I'm fighting just to breathe When the anger fills the air.

I don't run,

I don't scream,

I just vanish in between,

Like my body knows before my mind

That it's time to leave the scene.

When you get angry,

I go still,

Like the whole world loses its will,

I freeze, I shut down,

I can't explain,

Your voice hits harder than the words you say.

I'm not ignoring you,

I'm trying to get through,

When fear takes over everything,

I don't know what else to do.

There's a little kid inside me Still waiting for the storm,

Counting every second Till the room becomes warm.

I wish I could tell you

What happens in my head,

But every word gets tangled And every thought turns dead.

So if I look away,

If I don't know what to say,

It's not because I don't love you,

I'm just trying to be okay.

When you get angry,

I go

still,

Like the whole world loses its will,

I freeze, I shut down,

I can't explain,

Your voice hits harder than the words you say.

I'm not ignoring you,

I'm trying to get through,

When fear takes over

everything, I don't know what else to do.

Maybe someday

you'll understand