Fragile Grace

I read the silence in your eyes

The little changes in your voice

I turn a moment into signs

Then make a thousand different choices I

talk too much, I love too deep I grieve the things that

never start I lie awake instead of sleep

With every question in my heart

You said you need to find yourself

And I said, “I understand”

But underneath, I’m scared you’ll find

A life that doesn’t need my hand

I’m always ten thousand thoughts ahead

Building futures in an empty bed You’re living here,

I’m light-years gone Afraid I’ll love you when you’ve moved on

You’re the first thing I want to tell When I’m doing fine

or I’m not doing well

Maybe I’m seeing what I want to see

Maybe you’re close, but not close to me

One minute we’re out in a field of flowers Laughing like nothing

could ever change The next,

I see you in somebody’s arms And I’m watching us disappear again

I know you’re not the one to blame I know your heart

is still afraid

But every time you say,

“Not now,” I hear,

“You’re not the one I’d choose someday”

A strawberry picked too soon is sour

Left too long, it rots away I’ll give you time to find

your answer But I won’t disappear while you decide my fate Maybe

letting go is not surrender

Maybe it’s the first time I choose To stop confusing hope with

waiting

To stop losing me to you

I’m always ten thousand thoughts ahead But I’m coming back to myself

instead You’re living there,

and I’m moving on Even if it takes me one more song

You were the first thing I wanted to tell The sweetest thought

and the deepest hell Maybe I saw my feelings in your eyes

And called the reflection a shared life

Something can be real and still not stay

Something can be beautiful and fade

Maybe one day you’ll be ready to love But maybe I won’t

be waiting that

day.