Fading Through The Fog

Yeah…

Mind cloudy,

heart heavy, Tryna escape what’s inside

me.

Sippin’ lean, poppin’ pills,

tryna numb the pain,

Brain so fuzzy, I don’t even feel the rain,

Smile on my face but I’m dying in my head,

Tryna run from all the thoughts that I never said.

I don’t wanna feel,

I just wanna fade,

Every little memory got me afraid,

Lost in the fog,

don’t know where I’ve been,

Tryna find myself underneath all this sin.

Late

nights, staring at the ceiling,

Heart broke down, don’t know what I’m feeling,

Bottle by my side,

but it won’t fix the cracks,

I keep running forward while my mind pulls back.

Everybody says, “Bro, you gotta be strong,” But they don’t hear the

voices when the night’s this long,

I been drowning in thoughts that I can’t explain,

Looking for an exit from a head full of pain.

And I know this ain’t healing,

I’m just hiding what I’m feeling,

Clouds in my head getting harder to see through,

All I really wanted

was somebody to see me too.

Sippin’ lean, poppin’ pills,

tryna numb the pain,

Brain so fuzzy, I don’t even feel the rain,

Smile on my face but I’m dying in my head,

Tryna run from all the thoughts that I never said.

I don’t wanna feel,

I just wanna fade,

Every little memory got me afraid,

Lost in the fog,

don’t know where I’ve been,

Tryna find myself underneath all this sin.

Maybe one day I’ll put the bottle down,

Face my demons when nobody’s around,

I don’t wanna be numb,

I just wanna be free,

Find the person that I used to be.

If I make it through the darkness,

I’ll remember this night,

Every scar in my story helped me search for the light,

I was chasing the silence,

but the silence got loud,

Now I’m tryna wake up from this permanent cloud.

Brain fuzzy…

heart still beating,

Maybe there’s a reason I keep seeking,

I don’t need to disappear to escape,

Maybe tomorrow I can find another way.