Fading light

Yeah…

I miss who I used to be sometimes,

But I know she had to go.

This is for the old me…

I used to smile when I wanted to cry,

Tell everybody that I’m doing alright.

I gave my heart and got nothing back,

Still blamed myself for the things I lacked.

I was scared of being left alone,

So I stayed where I didn’t feel at home.

I kept forgiving what broke me down,

Just so I wouldn’t lose someone around.

And I know I made mistakes,

I know I wasn't always right,

But I was just a girl

Trying to make it through the night.

So goodbye to the old me,

The girl who couldn't say no,

Who gave everybody everything And forgot where her heart goes.

She cried behind closed doors,

She took the blame for everything,

And even when she felt so lost,

She still tried to make them stay.

I’ll always love the old me,

But she doesn't live here

anymore.

I look back at those old pictures,

And sometimes I don't know her face.

She had dreams inside her eyes,

But she was scared to take up space.

She thought being loved meant changing,

Thought being hurt meant she deserved it.

Now I'm learning I can lose somebody

And still know that I'm worth it.

Yeah, I still have bad days,

Still break down sometimes,

But I'm learning how to pick myself up Instead of losing my

mind.

And if I could go back,

I'd hold her while she cried,

Tell her, “Baby, you don't have to

Have it all figured out tonight.”

You were never too much,

You were never hard to love,

You were just giving pieces of yourself To people who weren't enough.

So goodbye to the old me,

I finally let her go.

She taught me how to hurt,

But now I'm learning how to grow.

I don't hate who I was,

I just know I'm something more.

And every scar she left behind

Is something I'm stronger for.

So goodbye…

To the old me.

Thank you for surviving Until I could become Who I'm supposed to

be.