When I Let You Stay
No "fix it tonight"
Just heat that don't ask me to lie
You're still angry, aren't you—
it's all right
This is how I know You
Not in the light
In the dark where I finally
stop performing Mouth like a mercy I was
too proud to ask
Hands like a vow I didn't know
I needed
You don't conquer, You don't keep score
You just stay till
I don't have to be brave anymore
This is how I know You
When I let You stay
I made a religion out of
being fine
Coffeebreak prayers, two minutes,
then I'm gone
You undressed the joke first,
then the armour
Then the part of me that only knows how to fight
I made a sound I would never put in a hymn
You weren't offended
You made the body that tells the truth
when the mouth is still lying
No sermon, no spotlight
No "fix it tonight"
Just heat that don't ask me to lie
This is how I know You
Not in the light
In the dark where I finally
stop performing Mouth like a mercy I was too proud to ask
Hands like a vow I didn't know
I needed
You don't conquer, You don't keep score
You just stay till
I don't have to be brave anymore
This is how I know You When I let You
stay
Afterward I ain't fixed
I'm just quieter
The fire's still there
It just
ain't the only thing in the bed
If this is grace it don't look holy
it looks like someone who didn't flinch
This is how I know You
Not in the light Tap it tap
it — then I let it go Coffeebreak’s over You didn’t leave
This is how I
know You
When I let
You stay