When I Let You Stay
No "fix it
tonight"
Just heat that don't ask me to lie
You're still angry,
aren't you—
it's all right
This is how I know You
Not in the light
In the dark where I finally stop performing
Mouth like a mercy I was too proud to ask
Hands like a vow I didn't know I needed You don't conquer,
You don't keep score
You just stay till I don't have to be brave anymore This
is how I know You
When I let You stay
I made a religion
out of being fine
Coffeebreak prayers,
two minutes, then I'm gone
You undressed the joke first,
then the armour
Then the part of me that only knows how to fight I
made a sound
I would never put in a hymn
You weren't offended
You made the body that tells the truth when the mouth is
still lying
No sermon,
no spotlight
No "fix it tonight"
Just heat that don't ask me to lie
This is how I know You
Not in the light
In the dark where I finally stop performing
Mouth like a mercy I was too proud to ask
Hands like a vow I didn't know I needed You don't conquer,
You don't keep score
You just stay till I don't have to be brave anymore This
is how I know You
When I let You stay
Afterward I ain't fixed
I'm just quieter The fire's still there It just ain't the only
thing in the bed
If this is grace it don't
look holy
it looks like someone who didn't flinch
This is how I know You
Not in the light
Tap it tap it — then I let it go
Coffeebreak’s over
You didn’t leave
This is how I know You
When I let You stay