Still Here

I don't know how to stop it...

I don't know how much longer I can fight...

I wanna disappear, I wanna shut it all down,

Too many problems and they're weighing me down.

I'm screaming inside but I don't make a sound,

Trying to find a reason to stay around.

My mom keeps calling,

saying, "Please don't go," But she doesn't understand how deep this goes.

She says she needs me,

says she loves me tonight,

While I'm fighting with myself just to make it through the night.

I DON'T WANNA DIE,

I JUST WANT THIS PAIN TO END!

I'M SO SICK OF FIGHTING,

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO BEND!

Depression's in my head and it's screaming my name,

I'm drowning in the darkness,

I'm choking on the blame!

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO STOP IT!

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!

I JUST NEED SOMEBODY

TO HELP ME MAKE IT THROUGH!

I'm angry at the people

who told me I'd be fine,

Angry at myself

for believing every lie.

I wish I could rewind,

undo everything,

Find the person I was before I lost everything.

Mom, I hear you calling,

I know you're scared tonight.

I'm still here,

I'm still breathing, Even though I'm losing the fight.

Don't let me face this by myself,

Don't tell me I should be strong.

Just stay here beside me

Until this feeling is gone.

I DON'T WANNA DIE,

I JUST WANT THIS PAIN TO END!

I NEED A REASON TO BELIEVE I CAN BEGIN AGAIN!

Depression's in my head,

but it doesn't get the final say!

If I can make it through tonight,

Maybe I can make it through another day!

I'm still here... I'm still here...

Please...

Just stay with me.