Broken but Breathing

Yeah…

You ever lose somebody and feel like you lost yourself?

Like the whole world kept moving

while yours just stopped…

You said forever, I believed every word,

Now I'm sitting in the silence with my thoughts getting worse.

Pictures on my phone,

but I don't wanna scroll,

'Cause every little memory puts a crack in my soul.

You took your love back,

left me cold in the rain,

Now I'm fighting with myself just to deal with the pain.

Everybody says, “Move on,

you'll be fine,” But they don't hear the war that's happening inside

my mind. I've had nights where I wondered if I should disappear,

Thinking maybe it'd be easier if I wasn't here.

But somewhere underneath all the hurt and regret,

There's a part of me screaming,

“Don't give up yet.”

Since you left, I've been losing my way,

Trying to survive every night,

every day.

I thought losing you meant losing my life,

Had a thousand dark thoughts running through my mind.

But I'm still here,

even broken and bruised,

Even after everything that you put me through.

Maybe healing ain't fast,

maybe healing ain't clean,

But I'm fighting for the person I still wanna be.

I gave you my heart,

you gave me goodbye,

Now I'm asking all these questions with no answers tonight.

Was I never enough?

Was it something I said?

Now I'm arguing with memories inside of my head.

I hate that I miss you,

I hate that I care,

Hate seeing your face when you're not even there.

You moved on,

but I'm stuck in the past,

Trying to understand how something perfect could crash.

And yeah,

I got scars that nobody can see,

But they don't have to be the ending of me.

If tonight is a battle,

I'll fight till the morning,

Even if I can't see what tomorrow is forming.

Since you left, I've been losing my way,

Trying to survive every night,

every day. I thought losing you meant losing my life,

Had a thousand dark thoughts running through my mind.

But I'm still here,

even broken and bruised,

Even after everything that you put me through.

Maybe healing ain't fast,

maybe healing ain't clean,

But I'm fighting for the person I still wanna be.

Maybe someday I'll hear your name and feel nothing,

Maybe someday I'll look back and see I became something.

You were a chapter,

you weren't the whole story,

And even through the darkness,

I'm still chasing tomorrow.