Half Alive

I got good at disappearing

While I stood right in the room

Smiling like I had the answers

While I watched the colors lose

Everybody said I looked okay

Maybe that’s the strangest part

How you can keep on breathing With a closed-off heart

I don’t want to be half alive

Half awake and passing by

I don’t want another year

Of watching my own life disappear If there’s something left inside

I want to give it room tonight

I don’t need to know where this goes

I just need to finally let it show

I stopped waiting for permission

Stopped rehearsing what to say

Maybe finding yourself again

Doesn’t happen all at once anyway

So let

the silence disappear

Let me hear my own voice clear

I don’t want to be half alive

Half awake and passing by

I don’t want another year

Of watching my own life disappear

I’m still here

I’m still here

(I'm still here!)

And for the first time

I can feel it

(feel it...)