The Rain Keeps Pouring

(tick tock... tick tock...) The clock on the wall is the only

sound

Staring straight down at the cold tiled ground The pressure is building

inside of my chest A heavy fixation that won’t let me rest

I try to look away,

I try to find a track But the familiar routine keeps pulling

me back It’s a quiet obsession,

a desperate escape

Shaping a shape I can't quite unshape.

The rain keeps pouring,

my scars keep growing

My heart says keep going,

but my brain says one more and you're finished

The boundaries are fading,

the light has diminished Trapped in a cycle of dangerous choices,

Just one more tomorrow

to clear out the voices.

It’s the daily exhaustion of playing a part

Hiding the physical map of my heart Adjusting my sleeves when I

walk through the door

Tired of the secrets,

but fearing the cure

It isn't a drama,

it's just a cold loop

Watching the strength in my spirit slowly droop A private confession that

nobody hears

Counting the damage and checking the mirrors.

The rain keeps pouring,

my scars keep growing My heart says keep going,

but my brain says one more and you're finished

The boundaries are fading,

the light has diminished Trapped in a cycle of dangerous choices,

Just one more tomorrow

to clear out the voices.

My heart wants a future that’s open and clear To live in

a moment that’s empty of fear But my brain wants the fix

and it wants it right now To break through the static but

never learns how Two voices are fighting inside of one head

One wanting life, and one full of dread.

The rain keeps pouring,

my scars keep growing

My heart says keep going,

but my brain says one more and you're finished

The boundaries are fading,

the light has diminished Trapped in a cycle of dangerous choices,

Just one more tomorrow to clear out the voices.

Standing at the sink while the water runs cold

Letting go of the grip that it used to hold

The brain says I'm done,

but the battle is slow

The rain keeps on pouring...

But the heart says to go.