Roadside Reveries
Bag on
the
floor Keys on
the table
Different room Same
head
Four in the morning,
vacancy sign
Red through the curtain,
buzzing all night
Paid for the room with whatever I had
Guy at the counter didn't even look back One bed,
one chair,
stain by the door
Cheap little painting hanging crooked on the wall I sit on the
edge,
shoes still on First time all night that the movement is gone
And damn There it is
Everything I outran
Pulls up beside me the second I stand
Every old voice,
every face, every fight
Guess memories don't care how far you drive
I changed the highway Changed the town
Changed what window I'm looking out
But when the engine finally died
Everything I carried stepped inside
Different ceiling Same thoughts above me
Different city Same ghosts still love me
I thought miles might make it quiet Thought distance might cut the
sound
But you can cross a hundred county lines And still bring yourself
around
Different ceiling
Same weight in my chest
Maybe leaving was the easy part
What comes next?
Shower running but I don't get in
Mirror got somebody tired in it
Eyes look older than they did last night Like one long road
added years to my life
Think about people I left without words
People I blamed,
people I hurt
People who'd probably laugh if they knew
I'm sitting here wondering what the hell to do
Part of me misses what made me leave
That's the kind of shit I don't wanna believe
How can a place make you miserable
Then feel like home when you're finally gone?
Maybe comfort and pain can share a bed
Maybe that's why we stay instead
Maybe I wasn't chasing somewhere new Maybe I was trying to outrun
truth
Rain on the window
Cars outside
Sun coming up But the room stays dark
And I finally get it
The road can take me away It can't take me out of
me
Different ceiling
Same thoughts above me Different city Same ghosts still love me I
thought miles might make
it
quiet
But quiet only made it loud
I can cross another hundred lines Still gotta face me somehow
Different ceiling
Same weight in my chest Leaving wasn't the ending It was only
the first step
Curtain cracks
Morning light
I haven't slept
But I get up anyway Because I didn't come this far
Just to hide in another room