Rearview Roads

Engine humming

Two a.m.

Town getting smaller

In the rearview again

No address No plan

Just both hands On the wheel

Streetlights flicker, then disappear

Radio low, but I barely hear

Thirty miles out and it finally hits

I really left, I really did this

Phone on silent, screen face-down

Last exit sign still named my town

Thought I'd feel lighter crossing that line

Instead I got every thought in my mind Road dead empty,

headlights cut black

Part of me wonders if I should turn back But back got

nothing I ain't already seen

Same four walls, same worn-out dreams So I keep pressing gas like

movement means change Like enough highway might rearrange my brain I wanted

freedom, now freedom feels strange When nobody knows you and nothing has

a name

No destination

Just miles ahead Whole lotta noise Still stuck in my head I

left everything I couldn't become

Now I'm chasing better Not knowing where from

Maybe there's something

Past these city lights Maybe I'm just running

From another night I don't know where I'm going But I know

where I've been

So I keep driving Again and again

Passed a diner glowing out in the rain

Almost pulled over, then missed the lane

Saw two people laughing through the glass Made me think about everything

that didn't last

Names I don't call

Things I never said

People I still argue with inside my head

Some I still love,

some I still blame

Funny how distance don't quiet a name

I keep checking mirrors like something might follow

But the road behind me stays dark and hollow

Maybe that's worse, maybe that's peace Maybe letting go don't happen clean

Every mile marker asks me the same You changing your life or

just changing the frame?

And I ain't got an answer,

not tonight Just this steering wheel and these passing lights What if

I wake up tomorrow

And nothing feels new?

What if every road I take Still leads back to you?

Back to them

Back to me

Back to everything I'm trying not to be

Maybe I don't need an answer yet

Maybe tonight

I just need distance

No destination Just miles ahead Whole lotta silence

Still loud in my head I left everything I couldn't become Now

I'm chasing better Even if better don't come

Maybe there's something

Past these city lights

Maybe all I've got Is one more night I don't know where

I'm going But I ain't turning back

Not yet

White lines

Black sky

Quarter tank

No signs

I pass another exit

Keep going

No destination