The Mirror (Body Dysmorphia)

I look again

Just one more time Something changed Or maybe it’s my mind

I see my face beneath the light But something never feels right

I find one flaw,

I make it grow Until it’s all that I can know I

change my clothes

I fix my hair

I check the glass

Is something there?

The mirror shows me what it wants A version I don’t recognize

I know it’s only glass

But somehow it can lie

Maybe it’s the mirror

Maybe it’s my eyes

Maybe I’ve been staring Too long to see what’s right

THE MIRROR

KEEPS TELLING ME I’M WRONG

I LOOK INTO THE GLASS AND I DON’T KNOW WHO I SAW

THE MIRROR MAKES A SHADOW OUT OF ME

I KNOW THAT IT’S A REFLECTION BUT IT’S ALL THAT I CAN

SEE

Another picture Delete it again Zoom in closer Where does it end?

I compare myself To everyone I see Then wonder why I can’t

see what’s in me Someone says,

“You look fine” But I can’t believe their eyes The words sound

real But something in my mind Still tells me lies I check

again

Then check once more

Looking for a flaw

I never saw before

Maybe it’s the mirror

Maybe it’s my eyes

Maybe I’ve been staring Too long to see what’s right

What if I stop looking?

What if I walk away?

What if I let this moment

Be enough today?

I don’t have to love

Every part of me

Maybe I can learn To let myself just be

THE MIRROR

DOESN’T GET TO TELL ME WHO I AM

I LOOK INTO THE GLASS AND I’M LEARNING TO UNDERSTAND THE MIRROR

CAN REFLECT

BUT IT CAN’T DEFINE

I’M MORE THAN EVERY FLAW THAT I FIND

I look again… (pause) Then I look away.