A Different Hell

I learned to bend

Before I grew

Called it living What else could I do?

Each time I left

I carried more

A different room Behind the door

A different hell The same beneath

Another way To crawl through grief They say it awaits When life

is through But I already live it A different hell

I've slept inside

What kept me scared

Reached out for comfort

Nothing there

I've called it peace

When I went numb

Mistook the silence For being done

A different hell The same beneath Another way To crawl through grief

They say it awaits When life is through But I already live

it A different hell

I can't remember

Before the weight

Was I ever whole

Or just hard to break?

I've let things go

They haven't left

I feel them move

With every breath

I got out

It got in

Changed the room

Same within

No more fire

Nothing new

I've been burning All the way through

A different hell The same beneath Another way To crawl through grief

They say it awaits When life is through But I already live

it A different hell

I know this dark

I know it well

Another morning

A different hell