Grew up this way

I grew up with no locked doors

I didn’t learn how to be brave

I learned how to disappear (shhh)

Silence feels safer than tears

I learned how to live with heavy thoughts

They ask me why I’m like this now

But I grew up in the damage and it never went away

Every word felt like a test

I wasn’t taught how to feel safe

I was taught how not to cry (mmmmm)

I didn’t learn how to be strong

I learned how not to need

I didn’t break

I was hurting

I grew up thinking consent was an excuse

I was a kid

when they took my dignity

I swallowed my pain

I stopped tinking things would change

They say to lie down

and take it

I’m not broken… I was raised where nothing felt safe I didn’t

break

I broke slowly

Every word felt like a test I didn’t choose

this life I’m not dramatic

I’m just honest I grew up learning how to stay

alive (ahhhh)