Not worthy

I try to speak

But the silence cuts deeper than knives (hmmmmm)

I know their tired of me

But I’m tired of myself

The one nobody wanted

Everything I do feels like a sin

Breaking in the inside

Try to understand the life I’m living in

They think I’m strong

But I’m breaking every night

They think therapy is working

But it’s teaching me to be silent

Oh,

how did I get to this point?

Trying hard to be okay But pains a habit I can’t stop

I’m running from my thoughts Cause their louder than the world

Every memory I carry has a razor hidden in it

Smile when it’s aching Say I’m fine but I’m faking Headphones in

Drowning out the noise They see the surface

Not the storm

They just see the mask I wear

I try to keep it in but there are cracks in the

mask now

No one checks when I go quiet

Guess they think I like the silence No they only see the

mask I wear

I try to hold it all inside

But I’m breaking every night

I wasn’t brave, I was afraid I just learned to hide the

pain

No one came, no one stayed I didn’t live,

I didn’t thrive I’m not strong

I just learned how to survive