Fearing the Light

I learned to smile in a borrowed room Feet on the floor,

but I'm not there too

Morning trains

and painted faces I keep my name

in hidden places I joke too loud

to hide the fear

Death taps my shoulder,

I won't hear

If I step out,

will I disappear? If I try new steps,

will the road feel clear?

I'm counting scars like falling stars Trying to remember who we are

I'm living behind your shadows,

can't break out

Hiding from death, and my lungs forget how But if I try

something new,

I'll learn to breathe I'll get better if I

try—please let me leave (oh-oh)

(oh-oh, oh-oh)

I'm still here

I watch my friends jump without a net

I trace the edge,

but I don't step yet

I build my courage out of noise Then bite my tongue,

forget my voice

If this is fear,

I won't obey

I take one new step anyway

Say my name, don't look away

I'm not done living today (ahhhh)

I'm living behind your shadows,

can't break out

Hiding from death, and my lungs forget how But if I try

something new, I'll learn to breathe

I'll get better if I try—please let me

leave (oh-oh) (oh-oh)