Walls Closing In

(hummmmm) (ahhhh) I wake up and the room feels smaller,

same four walls, same heavy air

Everybody asks me how I'm doing,

I say I'm fine because I'm scared

I put a smile on when I need to,

say I'm good so they don't ask

Then I'm alone with all my thoughts again,

trying not to crack beneath the mask

I've been trying to breathe,

trying not to sink But every time I get a little free

Something pulls me back again

I feel trapped inside my own life,

like I'm watching from behind a glass

Every day feels like the same night,

and I'm tired of pretending it will pass

I don't wanna feel this heavy,

I don't wanna hurt this much

I just wanna wake up one morning

and not feel like I'm stuck

There's a thousand thoughts inside my bedroom,

and they never let me sleep

They remind me of the things I'm missing,

all the promises I couldn't keep

I've gotten good at disappearing

without ever leaving home I can sit inside a crowded room and

somehow still feel all alone And I hate that I'm so used

to it, that the sadness feels like mine Like I should know

how to escape it when I can't even find the sign

I've been trying to breathe,

trying to believe

That maybe there's a version of me who doesn't feel this endlessly

Maybe I'm not broken,

maybe I'm just tired Maybe I've been carrying more than I was

ever meant to carry Maybe somewhere underneath all the noise inside my

head There's still a little piece of me that wants to see

what happens next I don't know when it gets better,

I don't know when I'll feel free But I know there has

to be a morning that feels different than these

I feel trapped inside my own life,

but trapped doesn't mean forever

Maybe there's a door I haven't found,

maybe I'll find it when I'm ready

I don't need to have the answers,

I don't need to know how much

I just need to keep on breathing till this feeling isn't so

much

Same four walls, same lonely nights But somewhere past this sadness there's

still a little light I'm still here,

I'm still trying Even when my heart feels tired,

even when I'm barely smiling Maybe someday I'll look around and recognize

the life I'm in Maybe someday these walls won't feel like they're

closing in For now I'll take another breath,

let another morning come I may feel trapped,

I may feel broken,

but I'm not finished becoming someone