Seventeen

counting my steps

down the hall

losing my breath

feeling so small

without you

without you

can’t forgive what happened to me back when i was young

before i was in my teens before i was not me but

now im seventeen

denying my thoughts losing my brain why can’t i relapse and do

it all again

turn back the time

turn back the clock

i want to try

and save what i could not

now im sat

on my bathroom floor

towel round my chest wet dripping down my neck

blinking again and again

want to know what being me is again don’t know who i’d

be

but now im rushing,

chasing time

but still so slow

but desperate to climb

find a way find an escape

away from my thoughts

away from my brain but i still come back to

denying my thoughts losing my brain why can’t i relapse and do

it all again

turn back the time turn back the clock

i want to try

and save what i could not

(save what i could not...)

(what i could not...)