Beautiful Damage
You were the habit I couldn't
break
You were the habit I couldn’t—
Beautiful damage I learned from too
late-ate-ate
I still stare at the moon
and picture your room How your
fury turned filthy the second you
pulled me to you You kept
my name quiet then screamed it
in private We fought like forgiveness
was running out of time Your
nails made confessions all over my
spine Your questions got crueler the
deeper the wine We tore through
deceits like the truth was inside
them Then woke up still angry
and too proud to define it
You cursed every woman who looked
at me twice Then climbed in
my lap like you wanted a
fight We never said sorry just
ruined the mattress Two beautiful liars
making love outta damage We were
beautiful damage Red threads twisted into
static You loved me where nobody
knew me I kept treating us
like something casual
Every kiss felt like a promise
Every fight became a habit We
never learned to love each other
clean But damn we made the
wreckage magic
Till two in the morning,
hair in an eye Stealing my
fries while your coffee went cold
You laughed with your whole chest
head thrown back That sound hit
my soul like six strings through
glass Sand in the car from
the weekends we stole Your hand
holding mine when the water looked
cold We climbed until everything under
us shrank And dressed up for
dinner with dirt on our ankles
Knee against mine underneath that small
table Made all of our chaos
feel briefly stable I thought those
small moments would always come back
Never knew they were everything after
the facts We were beautiful damage
Red threads twisted into static You
loved me where nobody knew me
I kept treating us like something
casual
Every kiss felt like a promise
Every fight became a habit We
never learned to love each other
clean But damn we made the
wreckage magic
Sobering up was easier than shaking
your touch I could quit every
vice but didn’t quit what we
were I'd roll a thousand blunts
just to quiet the one Make
my whole body numb make the
memory stop You pushed for chaos
I answered on cue Gave you
every sharp edge you expected me
to Now I sit in this
room while the hours drag on
Writing what I should have said
into this song Your side of
the bed still controls where I
sleep Your laugh from that diner
still cuts just as deep I
survived every morning that followed our
fall Before getting you was the
hardest withdrawal You made me a
secret I made you an option
We called it devotion while feeding
our problems By the time I
admitted where I wanted to be
You had finally learned how to
live without me
We were beautiful damage Red threads
twisted into static Loved me where
nobody knew me I kept treating
us like something casual
Every kiss felt like a promise
Every fight became a habit We
never learned to love each other
clean But damn we made the
wreckage magic