Ten Toes Rising

Yeah… Voices in my head,

but they don’t run me.

Nah.

Still here. Still breathing.

Ten toes.

Voices in my head tryna tell me I’m finished,

Dark thoughts knocking but I won’t let ’em in it,

World gets cold, yeah,

the pressure gets vicious,

But I wake up every day like,

fuck your predictions. Smoke in the air,

let the whole day pass,

Trying to find peace while I’m watching time lapse,

Life throws punches, I’m built to withstand,

Got my feet on the pavement and my life in my hands.

They don’t know the battles that I’m fighting inside,

They don’t see the storms that I keep locked behind,

Murder on the news,

another name gets lost,

Makes you question who you trust and what everything costs.

Sometimes I feel like everybody’s watching my back,

Like somebody’s coming and I don’t know who to trust,

So I keep my distance,

keep my head on straight,

Don’t let the fear turn my heart into hate.

But I’m still standing when the whole thing cracks,

Ten toes down and I ain’t looking back.

Fuck all the shit that goes wrong,

I’m strong, Keep moving forward when the nights feel long,

Voices talk loud but they don’t decide,

I’m still here, still living my life.

Ten toes to the road,

I’m holding my ground,

Head held high when the darkness comes round,

They can say what they want,

I ain’t losing my soul,

I’m writing my story,

I’m taking control. Sometimes my mind feels like war in a room,

Echoes get louder when I’m staring at the moon,

Thoughts about murder, violence in the street,

Too many bad stories that I don’t wanna repeat.

Feel like people out to get me,

so I stay on my guard,

Keep my circle small ‘cause trust got hard,

I don’t let everybody get close to my life,

But I won’t let paranoia control my mind.

I ain’t looking for trouble,

I just wanna survive,

Keep my head down low while I’m building my life,

Every step that I take is a step toward peace,

Even when the noise in my head won’t cease.

I ain’t perfect, I got scars from the fight,

Had some dark days,

had some long nights,

But every sunrise is another new chance,

So I get back up and I make my own plans.

No demon, no voice gonna take what is mine,

No bad day gets to rewrite my life,

If the road gets rough,

I’ma walk through the pain,

Fall seven times, get back up eight.

Fuck all the shit that goes wrong,

I’m strong, Keep moving forward when the nights feel long,

Voices talk loud but they don’t decide,

I’m still here, still living my life.

Ten toes to the road,

I’m holding my ground,

Head held high when the darkness comes round,

They can say what they want,

I ain’t losing my soul,

I’m writing my story,

I’m taking control.

Voices might talk… But I don’t have to listen.

People might doubt me… But I don’t have to fear them.

Still breathing. Still standing.

Still living. Ten toes down.

That’s my decision.