Saints and Demons

I'm at the crossroads...

Am I a saint or a monster?

Look.

I’m fighting inner demons,

trying to figure out who I am Am I bad or good?

Tell me, do you even understand?

I try to put my faith in God,

reaching for the light But the devil pulls so hard,

keeping me crying in the night...

(Triple-time hi-hat roll)

Watch how he takes over.

Bible on my dresser but a warzone in my mind,

running out of breath!

Using lyrics as a blade,

cutting open every scar on the edge of death!

Threw it all away to the floor!

Anxiety has got me paralyzed at the door!

Trapped inside a cage of my own design,

losing every second of my mind!

But I just want to be pure.

I just want a cure.

I drop to my knees on the cold floor.

Caught in a war for my soul.

I’m fighting inner demons,

trying to figure out who I am... I

ask for forgiveness, but the trauma is a shadow.

Devil got a grip,

using my guilt as a shield!

Racing with the clock,

dodging every block, hit the studio and bleed!

Defending my sanity against my own brain,

is there anyone who has what I need?!

Why does the dark feel so sweet?

Losing my grip... Screaming to the sky,

devil's holding my hand.

But I gotta let go!

(Snare roll)

Grab the shield of faith,

blocking the hate in my chest!

Opening eyes, putting the demons to rest!

Shattering all of the chains!

Rewriting the story,

finding the purpose in pain!

Foundation's locked! Choosing the good,

taking back every step he was taking!

Am I bad or good?

I finally know who I am.

The pull was heavy...

But the light was stronger.